Looking back to January I never imagined this is where I’d be at the end of 2017. This year has been crazy. As Kylie Jenner said this was the year of ‘like realising stuff’ and I have to agree with her. This year has taught me so much about myself.
One of the biggest things I realised this year was to have faith, everything always works out. I spent about 4 months of this year panicking about where I was going to end up in September. I didn’t realise I was qualified enough to go to university and when I did it was March. I was a late UCAS applicant and because of this I didn’t have many choices. I did end up with 5 offers (which I’m very proud of) but I didn’t like 4 of them. My top choice offered me a conditional offer which I didn’t meet and I was crushed. I had to wait two months until clearing and when clearing opened I still didn’t have a place anywhere I wanted. After two weeks of being stuck in limbo I realised I had the grades to go to Stirling. This ended up being a far better university, in terms of size and of league tables.
I didn’t need to waste so much time worrying, I ended up in a better place than I ever imagined or considered.
Everything falling into place has happened to me more than once this year. Going to Stirling university wasn’t feasible to commute to everyday from home. This meant I was either going to have to move into a flat completely on my own or go into halls. Honestly I’m not sure what gave me more anxiety. The thought of living with 4 or more strangers terrified me – I still don’t understand how people can do it. Moving into a flat by myself also gave me a lot of anxiety, I have never stayed by myself overnight so having my own flat would have been a massive change.
However, as I was making this decision Nick ended up with an offer for Dundee. This benefited me as I could easily travel from Dundee to Stirling and living with someone I’ve dated for 3 years was far more settling than my other options.
I’ve previously spoke about how quickly we had to move out. Two weeks to find a flat and sign a lease is very unrealistic. We had plenty of people giving us advice and warning us that it might not be manageable. Yet we were sat in our flat 10 days after first viewing it. In these 10 days we had to get furniture and deposits together. I’m still honestly so amazed we managed it.
I realised how fortunate I am to be surrounded by my family and friends. We literally could not have managed anything without them.
Moving to a different city meant that I had to move jobs this year. I was so comfortable in my old job, I was friends with everyone I worked with – I still miss them – I knew my customers very well and just generally enjoyed my work. This caused me so much anxiety. I experienced so many new things at once and like anyone else I experience anxiety in unfamiliar situations. Especially as it meant having to start over. However it has all ended up being okay.
I realised that I shouldn’t worry about things before they have happened, not everything is going to go badly.
In 2017 I went on holiday to France, this was another highlight as usually when I go abroad I go to the same place every single year. Experiencing somewhere new was so much fun. I visited places such as Nice, Cannes and Antibes and had such a lovely time with Nick and his family.
2017 has probably been the busiest year for me but I wouldn’t change a single thing that’s happened. Before this year I would never have thought I was the type of person to move out so quickly, I like having things planned out – probably a little bit too much – yet I just went along with things this year. I am so excited to see what 2018 brings.